Stolen Thoughts -Between Affidavits

"Why is this so difficult?"
"It is not difficult. It's whether you want to be friends or you don't."

Silence

"Friends?
What does that mean?...Friends?
We don't act like 'friends'.

Or was that just a figment of my imagination.

So you're right.
It isn't difficult
At
All.

Day 1

Sigh

This is it!

Cheryl Says :

Now is the time to be childlike & do everything you always wanted to do.

And so this is what I want to do this year :

a. Paint an acrylic picture for my office wall - because none of the work I have seen move me

b. Resume belly dancing classes- it is pretty sexy, isnt it?

c. Past life regression therapy - need to know why the hell I meow at random cats that walk past

d. Tarot card reading classes- I have been fascinated from the first time I drew a King of Wands

e. Meditation- to silence this monkey mind

f. Take a holiday, on my own

g. To purchase a foosball table- would look real nice in my crib

h. To welcome love into my life- I have avoided it for way too long, time to embrace it

i. To get a tattoo- to go with the belly dancing

j. To go hunting for vintage furniture & art work.

Yet Another Epiphany

If you think :
I am only good for a one night stand;
If you think :
I ought to be your friend with benefits;
If you think:
I should be your part time lover;
If you think:
I am not good enough as a partner;
If you think :
I am here to satiate your lust;
If you think:
I should be your dirty little secret.
If you think:
I am your toy

Think again.
Because that will not be enough
To keep me satisfied.

So I suggest
You go look somewhere else.

Roll the Dice

if you’re going to try, go all the
way.
otherwise, don’t even start.

if you’re going to try, go all the
way.
this could mean losing girlfriends,
wives, relatives, jobs and
maybe your mind.

go all the way.
it could mean not eating for 3 or 4 days.
it could mean freezing on a
park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.
isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your
endurance, of
how much you really want to
do it.
and you’ll do it
despite rejection and the worst odds
and it will be better than
anything else
you can imagine.

if you’re going to try,
go all the way.
there is no other feeling like
that.
you will be alone with the gods
and the nights will flame with
fire.

do it, do it, do it.
do it.

all the way
all the way.

you will ride life straight to
perfect laughter, its
the only good fight
there is.

Monosyllabic Thoughts

Fear.   Sadness.   Tears. Grief. Silence.  Expectation
Strength.   Hope.   Happiness. Purpose.  
Principles. Conscience. Values.
Revelation.   Laughter.   Tears.
Fear.  Anger.  Silence
Truth.   Forgiveness
Peace