Interludes

Everytime I'm with you
I feel maybe
It could be the last time

Our souls sit close and silently within,
And their own webs from their own entrails spin;
And when eyes meet far off,
Our sense is such,
That,
Spider-like,
We feel the tenderest touch.

-John Dryden

How Do I Move On

If you keep coming back into my life?

I Don't Fit The Mould

But you have to take me as I am

For Now

All you have to do

Is take one step at a time

                                                                                                                                       For Now

But where do I truly belong?

A Visitation From The Past

I don't know how I feel about it

And I don't need to...

At The End Of The Day

The only question that you got to ask yourself  is this :

Does he love and respect you?

Go Ahead

Me

Shut me out

Blame me

Antagonise me

Scream

Yell

Vent your frustrations

I am only telling you the truth

Ironically, you already know this.

And spare me your lies

First Day At Work

So challenging

When one is constantly being scrutinized

Lessons I Have Learnt

Believe in yourself- no one else will know what you know about yourself

Listen to your heart-it's trying to tell you things you aren’t ready to hear, but need to hear anyway

Ensure you are the best at what you do

Love. Like you have never loved before-even if it hurts, love anyway

Family- don’t underestimate their importance, they mean everything

Friends- you don’t need 150 friends, you need 15 good friends at the most, people you can count on any time of the day

Surround yourself with beauty, happiness and peace, that’s the only way you can maintain the equilibrium

Pamper yourself-you deserve it

Whatever happens, keep your chin up

Maintain self respect and dignity and discard those who don't respect you, you dont need them anyway

Learn to differentiate the genuine and the fake
Let go- learn to forget the pain inflicted by others on you. It stems from their own personal demons, not yours

There is a God, you can feel him in your breath

Respect yourself; body and soul-you only have one of each

Do the right thing- you always will know what it is

There is a reason for everything, a good reason

Never listen to someone else’s opinion of who you are. You know who you are

Don’t let anyone bully you, stand your ground

God reaches out and touches you through the most unlikely people

Smile- even if it means through the flood of your own tears, smile

There is nothing wrong with being driven, focused, motivated and doggedly determined

Pursue what you want. Don’t deprive yourself of realizing your dreams

Take holidays, see the world. Learn how you are but a speck in the ocean of humanity

Let people say whatever they want about you, if it brings happiness to them, then allow them that happiness

Surround yourself with positive people

Give yourself sincerely and wholly to the people that care for you the most

Whatever the hurt is, it will eventually heal

Never underestimate the strength of the human spirit. It is more resilient than you give it credit for

Most of all- always start on a clean sheet. Never carry the baggage of your past into your future.

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Snippets

It seems to me some fine things have been laid upon your table
but you only want the ones you can't get - Desperado, The Eagles

" Are you the fine things?"

"No. I am the one you can't get"

Who Shall I Be Today?

She Says

"You always catch my attention "

And he retorts ," " Maybe you are punishing me for catching your attention."

Maybe.

I Have Trouble Believing

When You Say You Like Me

Because You Don't Even Know Who I Am Under All These Layers

Because I can't tell you

How much I miss you

A Note To The Past

I am sitting here in the dark.
Thinking.
Listening.
Feeling.
Knowing that I don't really know all that much.
About life.
About you.
About me.
And I don't need to know all of that anyway
But a sense of peace has enveloped my being.
I want to cry.
Weep
For all the pain I have had to go through.
But all I can feel right now is a sense of peace.
Solitude.
Silence.
Lucidity.
I wish you were here too.
Not with me physically.
But where I am right now
Emotionally
Spiritually

A Call of Fundamental Importance, And None At All

"Hello" he says
"Hello" comes her reply
"How are you?" he asks

She asks, "Why?"
"After a while he responds," What do you mean why?"
"Then she says," Why are you asking"
He replies " No reason"

And she says," Then the answer doesn't matter does it?"

Prayer for the Indifferent

The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.

- Elie Wiesel

On Days Like These

The sun forgot to wake up this morning

Overwhelmed by the dark grey clouds of mayhem
Silence in the air
Hanging precariously
On a limb of despair

On days like these

Thoughts afloat for a second
Like bubbles on a rippling watery surface
Whiffs of regret remorse restitution
Blindfolded and floating in the air

On days like these

You wish you had someone to hold you close
Protect you from the brutal lashings of life
To shield you from the emotional battery
A martyr in the night

On days like these

You wish you had not potrayed
That image of infallible strength
That imagery but a farcical stageshow
A comedy of errors

On days like these

When the energy in your limbs
Have crept stealthily away in the thick of night
Leaving you hopeless and vulnerable
Barren, empty, in fright

On days like these

You are left with nothing
Nothing but to face the hard cold reality
The truth that the journey is far from over
It's trails of twisted convolution, disdain

On days like these

You speak to the God Unknown
The Man with might and more
Pray for the strength to hold on and go forth
Fearing if He will curse you with some more

On days like these

The tears that have already been shed
Dried by the winds of war
Nothing left but a trace of its existence
Etched into the vein of the mind

On days like these

I call out to him silently
Be my cowardly companion, run away with me
To a timeless place
Where grief has no space

On days like these

You wonder if he can hear you cry in the night
If he can feel your grief and pain over the miles
If the gongs in your souls
Are but whispers in his darkness

On days like these

You wish the world could see
How you feel for him
Not have to hide behind a sheet of oblivion
A fecundity of imagination and no more

On days like these

flamen dialis

What Shall I Do Next?

Meow..

It's Time

To celebrate my new beginning

I Have Been Told

Brace Yourself, My Love

 

I never promised it wouldn't hurt 

Damned Lies

Those Lies

And Make Them Truths

Stand Accounted For Them

I Want To Be Alone

So I can embrace the pain

Drown in anguish

Savour the hurt

Taste the angst

Get up

Live.

Each In His Own Tongue

A fire-mist and a planet,
A crystal and a cell,
A jelly-fish and a saurian,
And caves where the cave-men dwell;

Then a sense of law and beauty
And a face turned from the clod, --
Some call it Evolution,
And others call it God.

A haze on the far horizon,
The infinite, tender sky,
The ripe, rich tint of the cornfields,
And the wild geese sailing high;

And all over upland and lowland
The charm of the golden-rod, --
Some of us call it Autumn,
And others call it God.

Like tides on a crescent sea-beach,
When the moon is new and thin,
Into our hearts high yearnings
Come welling and surging in:

Come from the mystic ocean,
Whose rim no foot has trod, --
Some of us call it Longing,
And others call it God.

A picket frozen on duty,
A mother starved for her brood,
Socrates drinking the hemlock,
And Jesus on the rood;

And millions who, humble and nameless,
The straight, hard pathway plod, --
Some call it Consecration,
And others call it God.

-William Herbert Carruth

Cognisant

"...There's always someone laughing,

from the corner of their cage,
but to fly amongst the mountains you must dance within the waves.."

-Missy Higgins

Bridge Across Forever

“Do you know what I learned from you? I learned what is possible, and now I must hold out for what I thought we had. I want to be very close to someone I respect and admire and have somebody who feels the same way about me. That or nothing. I realized that what I'm looking for is not what you're looking for. You don't want what I want.”

-Richard Bach

* For Sukrit

Heart of the Matter

"But I think its about forgiveness

Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore"

-Don Henley

Sorry To Interrupt You But...

Please

Telling me what to

Think.

Feel.

Say.

Do.

My Living Contradiction

I am animated

Yet aloof

I am involved

Yet non-committal

I am tortured

Yet at peace

I am calm

Yet tormented

I am content

Yet impatient

I am certain

Yet unsure

I am controlled

Yet reckless

I am sane

Yet erratic

I am sublime

Yet aggresive

I am passionate

Yet cold

I'm here

Yet far away

I am brave

Yet fearful

I am shackled

Yet I'm free

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Of Paper Boats in Monsoon Rain

We spoke all night
Of rain and sparks and rays of light
Of paper boats in monsoon rain
Of birds and dreams and wishes in flight

And when morning came
We remembered all of it
And nothing at all

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Isn't It Obvious Already?

Can't Wait for Slash! 5.8.2010

Decide what you want,
Decide what you are willing to exchange for it.
Establish your priorities
And go to work

-HL Hunt

The Best Way to Spend a Friday Morning

What You Need To Know Is This

All that is left to be said
Is written on my face

Poppys In The Field

Sigh...